Hello! I am wondering if anyone is still out there? It's been quite a long time since I have found the time or energy to write about all of the words spinning around in my head. It's been a rough school year. It's been quite a year of changes and relearning how to be comfortable with the new norm, or what I guess would be the norm now.
For those of you wondering, my mom is still with me and I thank God on most days. It's the days when I see sadness in her eyes that I wonder if she wouldn't be better off with God in heaven and with my dad and brother. However, fleeting as those moments are, I treasure the fact that I can physically sit with her, talk to her, have a coffee with her, hold her hand, and most of all, hug her. Every once in a while she squeezes my hand back or she tells me she loves me and that carries me through until our next visit.
Sitting with her today, I realized I am ready to be back. I am ready to be writing again. I plan to tell more stories so that I can pass them on. I plan to share more pictures so that they are saved for my grandchildren to see.
I hope you are still there. I hope that you still want to hear about how I am navigating my way through my new norm as the daughter of a mom who is in the final stages of Alzheimer's.
And if no one is out there, that is ok. I know that I am doing this for me and no one else. As the name says, I am journaling my way through life's chaos as an Alzheimer's daughter.
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